Friday, August 28, 2015

The Way of Drowsy

the way of drowsy:

how sleep first happened, let's examine that, so a lot to think about the first day, many questions, so we can conclude drowsiness led from mental exhaustion, originally. people who think a lot, who really push, fall asleep in a snap moment.

now a lot of people are into physical exercise, they find that works too, a slow slide to sleep.

traditionally, dinner was most important, from dusk into the early hours of the night, and it was huge compared to breakfast and lunch. after dinner, rather faint, stagger to bed, finding a position, and to sleep.

these ways kill the wide awake state.

what is being asleep? in my experience, cloudy vague thoughts, lucidity gone, and a reset in sensation or feeling.

CLEARCHARGE

Friday, August 21, 2015

Of Aglypssinia

of aglypssinia:

and the world was
of Aglypssinia
in that year
the people pondered thus
where was the world
to bridge all worlds
to divide all that was common
to share in the fruit of the harvest
that could be given without expense
the gods
the demigods
the nymphs
the sylphs
the boys and the girls
a dancing party of men and women
here to say but nothing else
and at night
a shimmering image of person
a fork in the way
where to turn next
and the days passed
relaxing in the garden outside
a shining beacon of hope
turn away turn away
where to the future we move

CLEARCHARGE

Lifting the Pipeline

lifting the pipeline:

crisscrossing real space is a network of these lines, these pipelines are lines of attack, composed of least bits of matter joined together changing their neighbours to transfer a difference in state through the pipeline. when the other side somewhere else is passive, a flurry of change near the start end lifts the pipeline, so to speak, forcing a delivery of change at the other end.

damage to the pipeline means it is blocked. when unblocked one end has reset.

the social network depends on the integrity of these pipelines. activity in zones in space can disrupt the pipelines.

CLEARCHARGE

Sunday, August 16, 2015

An Ironic Delight

an ironic delight:

"it was so fascinating..."

"he is! well dodgy, inni, what a cunt! wonderful person!"

"well it's not that bad."

"isn't it? i know you think that. but i'm not sure."

"look. it's going well. there's no problem yet. it hasn't surfaced."

"so why's it like that? i think it will be all right...you know?"

"good!"

CLEARCHARGE

Queen Bee in the Hallway

queen bee in the hallway:

"there must be something in it...why do i have to wait?"

"there's more to...maybe we should go."

"do i reek? i've been over there forever. really, i just want to get it all over with."

"come on Jessica. let's go."

"okay, i guess. we'll go. i can't wait around."

"hi!"

"oh hi...i'm Jessica. these are my acolytes."

"where are you going?"

"i don't know yet. it's getting really uncomfortable around here. do you have any ideas?"

"what about the library?"

"the library. sure, why not? Julie, my husband tells me I should loosen up. what do you think? i agree."

"your what?"

"oh i got married when i was five. let's go to the library!"

CLEARCHARGE

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Das Mädchen für die Zeit

das mädchen für die zeit:

"Reservation?"

"Ja."

"Bitte."

"Das Mädchen. Hier."

"Danke schön!"

"Wir haben ein grosse Menü. Das Hotel ist das grösste. Shopping. Clothes. Bar."

"Danke. Wir haben das set Menü bitte."

"Das Mädchen? Fräulein? Was haben Sie?"

"Nein. Bitte."

"Die Rechnung? Was kostet das?"

"Ein moment. Hier."

"Danke schön!"

"Bitte schön!"

CLEARCHARGE

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

A Person and the Other

a person and the other:

the line of futile questioning goes something like this, why do i exist, of course, there is no explanation for why you or reality exists, you simply must accept that it does, that you exist, that other people exist, there is no why. for when does it make sense to ask why? the usual answer to why, actually, is that something came before, that before C and D came A and B. to think of all that exists in real space may boggle the mind, for you only knew so much at the beginning of time, barely yourself, actually.

in my case, as it began at time zero, a mist covered landscape, stones, trees, blue sky, dim light, walking forwards, in a dress, thinking, the sound of my name, this is my story. to deal with the personal in science seems almost a contradiction in terms, the bias in 20th Century AD science is that all is impersonal and that the same applies everywhere, only quantum mechanics seems to accept that the personal matters. in considering real space, composed of chains of least bits of matter, it would be simplistic to quickly divide up the total map of reality into personal zones, everyone in their own personal bubble space, space could look like a chained mass of soap bubbles, each soap bubble representing a person.

now very much hangs on the question, what is a person? now, i could see a lot at the beginning, i thought thoughts in my head, and what i saw was connected to my head. of course, i cannot see to infinity, at some point my vision ends. assume particle traffic between points in my own personal bubble space is high, internal communication is high. so what limits could there be between two people? the range of personal light? the range of personal think matter?

why are there many people? well, why are there many least bits of matter?

i admit i cannot remember thinking about other people at the beginning, at time zero. i held only myself in mind. that the population seemed ever higher with time was true, beyond what most people could think about. that other people are different in some ways seems true, if only in that they could not be the same as you yourself.

CLEARCHARGE

Saturday, August 1, 2015

Solipsism and the Independent

solipsism and the independent:

"i'm made up of lots of parts. i am the sum total of my parts, right? are any of my parts alone? not really! so of course i can't really believe in this total aloneness. can i see what other people see? all i know is me and what comes from elsewhere."

"tell me about what you think of yourself. why do you think of yourself as a dependent person."

"maybe i know myself very well maybe i don't, sure, i surprise myself sometimes but i'm not as shocking as other people! the question is whether you think of all of this reality as a whole. i think of it as connected parts. so you see i read other people's work, stuff i couldn't possibly come up with on my own, so i know other people are real, in as far as i define a unique person. i depend on other people. of course, still, i have to manage my life."

"do you prefer your own company? what are your thoughts?"

"i don't know. other people are something i can't fully comprehend."

"your focus determines a lot. you can only think about so much at a time. where none of this concerns you could be happening right now and you might never know. where you become independent is when you realize you're on your own out there."

"i find solipsism very frightening. yet i know it can't be true."

"you're your own man. you look for company. but you should realize that sometimes all that matters is what's going on with you yourself."

CLEARCHARGE