Play Or Not

play or not:

"well, there's the question, have i had enough of this? and you know, maybe there's a limit to everything, really how far did you want to go with this, anyway."

"go on, i mean, i have an idea how serious i am..."

"the question is, am i playing or not. let's get off this. i'm gonna introduce a new word, quodity, what is that about? really, you have to ask yourself, what does it want out of me? you know, when the girl or guy starts asking personal questions, you know they're interested. you're a commodity, i don't know about what."

"meaning what? is it like, this is just a game or when i walk out the door, i'm gonna find out how serious it is?"

"that's exactly it, there's an audience there, you know it. so you're thinking, what just happened? and i mean, really, if you're willing to go all the way, you want the universal ideal, it could happen pretty fast."

"yeah!"

"i'll come back to it again. explain yourself to yourself first."

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The Expression of Happy

the expression of happy:

"here i am. here to call out something. and you're here. what am i?"

"you're the one i see in front of me. what happens now?"

"well, i'm happy. spread the happy!"

"what?"

"i guess i'll say something about me. what have i done? what can you do?"

"well, okay then. i guess i could, maybe that too."

"right. it's done then. i'll turn away right now."

"don't turn away from me! are you really leaving me now?"

"see you later!"

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Blunt Affection

blunt affection:

"right, the one thing, when you front someone, maybe it's a girl, maybe it's not, you really have got to be crystal clear about the idea of what you're about to say, okay? don't gush all over her. it's gonna sound blunt afterwards, even maybe during, but that's what i do."

"what does that mean?"

"it's not good staying off either end, you know what i mean, you have to put yourself at the front end. it's frightening at first, maybe every time actually, but that's the way it is. seem you have affection. any reaction is better than no reaction in my opinion."

"what if they say..."

"well, that's difficult. don't make them angry. if they don't agree with what you're saying, you're in trouble, i gotta admit, that's why it's like that."

"ha ha ha."

"what do you have in common? what do all people with a body have in common? you really have to think about things like this, i mean, come on."

"go on."

"so i might say i just had a haircut, what's my story? you know, just go with it."

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Social Work and Play in School

social work and play in school:

nursery school at the Rosebank at the age of three to four, the first day little remembered, then learning numbers, how eight was written, naps after lunch, play in the playground, waiting after the finish. the first day of school at Cavendish is clearer, name tags, the name of the teacher.

who gets along with who? who follows who? trouble in the second year, accusations, boys upset. rainy day, what to do at lunchtime? the long afternoons, struggling in English, waiting for schoolday to finish. the importance of the teacher's name and title, birthdays, writing about the weekend past.

knowing boys' names, speaking your mind, remembering who talks to who, all very uppermost in his mind. food was a big deal, what you had for recess, whether you drank milk and what kind, white or chocolate? how to get out of fluoride tablets? gossiping about other boys' parents, family, the teacher's daughter. did life ever really change?

what did you want to be? what could you do? follow interest on the school playground, make an effort in class, humour the teacher about what you did last weekend!

CLEARCHARGE

Theme in Conversation

theme in conversation:

a place, a mood, the ambient noise....
however we arrived, whatever we did, through which doors, together in congress now.
observations, both personal and of the situation, contemplation, regard to dress, manner and circumstance.

talk....
someone has started, someone is listening.

what is there to talk about?

this is what i think....
do you differ? because now i have heard that from you.

anyway i continue, though i consider what you have said.
i shoot, i relay, i put forth, until my strength fails and falls on uncertain ground and my thoughts become clouded and confused.

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Play in Action

play in action:

you are here at last, your friends, things going on....
i have been here before, i know it well.

is it me?
you move well, you move fast.
it's true.
say something, you know well.

a chance encounter
or was it fate?

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In Play

in play:

it's here, it's now, everyone has arrived and everyone will go.

it's a match, all right, it started over there, now it's coming over here, girls on the left, girls centre forward, the boys over there.

give a little, lay it on the line, aim straight....
but, things move on and you must as well.

keep your eyes open. what did you hear? explain yourself to yourself.

was it about timing the next move?
there are only so many moves in two hours!

CLEARCHARGE